If...

If I don't speak up any longer, I am going to go insane !

The relentless agony, pain, and endurance I must go through, to attempt, to strive, to learn, to test my goals are pretty hard fought, pretty challenging, but most of all tiring.

Day in/out I find myself in countless routines - repetition. I find myself very much like a robot. Time is such a budget, everyday a new slate comes and goes, dictated by the alarm clock, and work load (factoring in my watch of course)!

I seem to have committed myself in some addiction. I find myself continuous emphatically attached to this addiction. I have become an anxiety freak, a dilemma, a chronic. I am making sacrifices that I know will not guarantee any success.

There are those that seek temporary salvation, and adjournment. But I seek to achieve the bigger fish. I seek and I'm in a rush to get where I have to.

I am disappointed with how some things have turned out, but it serves to remind me that's how I feel, and my conclusions on certain views confirms these interactions amongst each other. I don't know why I have this conviction of grudge, of betrayal, but I will let time heal. I will let time settle in.

What can I do? What can I say...

You can't win them all, but when you do, and when it counts. I'm sure that's all that matters. When time arises, I will let out the genuine feel. For now, time shall heal the greatest pain, time gives hope, time gives options.