Thoughts...

A lot of people don't really understand the mental pain and struggles I go through. I realize my folks and family have gone and are undergoing the same. The idea that you wish someone would understand you encompasses a belief that he or she has gone through the same; hence the understanding.

However, it just seems impossible to really seek that compassion from people. I think people are surprisingly selfish and conceited. Though, there is a borderline humanity beset amongst us. I figured it's just a realization of it. Some will show compassion and understanding because they are triggered into the thinking, while others are left on the outside.


I guess I am not the fortunate one !

Bad Day

Bad Trading Day.

I don't think it was necessarily bad discipline on my part. I must remind myself that there will always be days like these.

My mistake was again my impatience.

Feelings..

It's been the greatest thing ever ! Why move? Why eat good food? So what if you live in extravagant lofts! Does enjoying $100 per bottle wine mean anything? Does eating caviar, escargo w/ 82 laffitte mean a thing?

Not really.

It's who, not what !

And through the test of time, this is the most honest and genuine thing of all!

Time..

Time is the most precious commodity. It reveals everything about everyone and everything. In the blink of an eye, things change. The volatility in the world these days is just not possible to contain. Therefore, sometimes you just sit and watch, because you simply can't do anything.

Some times you place so much hope & feeling in someone; you only know they will disappoint you. It is entirely silly, but that's just how the brain works. Perhaps it is why we have foolish thoughts. Humans are such to repeat and make mistakes.

As of now, tears in heaven mean a lot to me...

Wow ! The gap down is just marvelous!!!