Monday: Day 1

It will be tough.

Life.

So many things has happened in about 1 year's worth of work in the real world. Since I've been there, in my dept., nearly 5 people were trimmed off.

In Oct 2008 - 1 Person left for the mainland
In Nov 2008 - 1 Person retired
In March 2009 - 1 Person retired, 1 Person was 'officially' layed off
In June 2009 - 1 Person took another position @ another dept.

Whether it was equivocal to leaving, downsizing, restructuring, moving, retiring; the truth of the matter is, they left. They left because the economic down turn has affected everyone and everything. It is sad.

I am stuck there alone, as a rookie, with more confinement and solitude. Slavery just started for me. Emancipation will only arrive when time has been put in.

3x are fun and deadly...
1 series are nice ...
Sometimes condos are a nice getaway ...

Good lord, when will I buy my freedom?

Laters..

It's just a matter of time. Time seems to move so fast, yet it provides some uncertainty. Wow...

I must be losing it, must be getting old. I try to detach myself from routines.
After financial top off, it's pretty much done for.

The war will be there to divert the public. Still people go about their sheeple lives..

Booze

I got a lot of rare booze recently. All delicious !

I like playing w/ Squeeze Toys.

If...

If I don't speak up any longer, I am going to go insane !

The relentless agony, pain, and endurance I must go through, to attempt, to strive, to learn, to test my goals are pretty hard fought, pretty challenging, but most of all tiring.

Day in/out I find myself in countless routines - repetition. I find myself very much like a robot. Time is such a budget, everyday a new slate comes and goes, dictated by the alarm clock, and work load (factoring in my watch of course)!

I seem to have committed myself in some addiction. I find myself continuous emphatically attached to this addiction. I have become an anxiety freak, a dilemma, a chronic. I am making sacrifices that I know will not guarantee any success.

There are those that seek temporary salvation, and adjournment. But I seek to achieve the bigger fish. I seek and I'm in a rush to get where I have to.

I am disappointed with how some things have turned out, but it serves to remind me that's how I feel, and my conclusions on certain views confirms these interactions amongst each other. I don't know why I have this conviction of grudge, of betrayal, but I will let time heal. I will let time settle in.

What can I do? What can I say...

You can't win them all, but when you do, and when it counts. I'm sure that's all that matters. When time arises, I will let out the genuine feel. For now, time shall heal the greatest pain, time gives hope, time gives options.

Funny things..

Thinning out.. Tough times.. What can I say...

The...

Weekend was filled with fun, laughter, and discovery. But it was hard work !

And so..

Will be gone for a few days.

And they bother to ask me, to include me? Wow. Oh well. In all the times I would amend, I would reach out, I get no consideration. It's time to give character.

Oh well.. I no longer will pursue, and no longer would ask.

IMPLICATIONS are TOTALLY wrong, the moment people SHAFT YOU!

The Euro is rising and the dollar seems to continue its down fall. I expect and will look towards the essentials.

lol

lol

I use to..

I use to think that some things were understood, some things cliche, some things well respected. But I am finding more and more truth to the fact that people's credibility and dignity has gone down the drain like our 'fiat currency'.

The more it grows, the more I believe people are turning against themselves. People whom you reached out to, betray you, ignore you. People whom you've stepped above and beyond for, are no longer there to hear the unspoken words. The betrayal, the empty promises, the words spoken.

I think it's being tested and it's being pushed. The idea of being nice, of being a friend, of being a person whom people can really relate to, is no longer there. I am totally displeased @ how fast people move on for their own self interest. To say things that pierce, that betrays; it means a lot. Nothing speaks more than the action of people. It shows a lot.

I was a fool back then, I was a fool now....

It's just a shame. I hate to be ruthless, but they haven't seen me ruthless before.

Whiskey

It's quite amazing what you really find in a garage. From decades old newspapers, magazines, to companies that don't exist no more. But speaking of old, how about a 1977 Crown Whiskey ? I was shocked to find this.

Needless to say, my eagerness got the best of me. Imagine it. Whiskey aged for sale in 1977, and then opened in 2009? WOW !

It didn't burn, but my palette tried to test match. It tried to seek the last time I drank Crown ! Sure enough, after a while the taste reminded me of how much I hated Crown. Canadian whiskey hyped up by kids, advertisement like the other counterparts. lol

The difference? I'm not sure. It's a lot smoother though. It doesn't have that brash initial burn. Though I think the aroma might have left, after being stored so long.

HAHA.

Wow...

People change. I sometimes feel, helping people out is just a negative lost cause.

Market

A lot of things seem to have been pushed to its limits. Chopping around up/down, sideways. We seem to be due for that correction. Why hasn't it come yet?

I am fearful of further political changes, and lifestyle changes.